Sunday, March 27, 2011


i have so much on my mind i dont know where to start. i guees i can start with the fact that i am only 27 and i have found that i am a work a holic, and that is were i i am alot more comfterable. i say this because i was hanging out with my freinds and sometimes i feelgood and lat night i felt like as if was the first time i hung out with them, like i had no control. so i camehome and did some work for about an hour or 2 after that i felt better and i dont know why? another one of my many issues is that i moved out on my own. it was choice to grow up i will be honest i at times i do feel lonley even tho i know i am not. i love and just miss my family. there is still other things i want to write on how ever i am short on time. life is to short letsenjoy everydayto the fullest

Sunday, March 20, 2011

3-20-11 actions speak louder then words

Actions have gotten me to where i am @  today. i had a discuction with some freinds, and as usual the bring things into the light. i have lost 80 plus lbs. moved out of my house.going back to school. all in that order i now want to be in a relationship and the only way that is goingto happen is if I TAKE ACTION. nothing  that is listed above happened on its own. So i look forward to this challenge and i will succeed

Thursday, March 17, 2011

3-17-11 First day of school

today was my first day of school and i have a major head ache i felt and feel really DUMB! couldnt subtract add mutiply or divide. i honestly am thinking what did i get myself into? i am  just pissed off at my self should have paid more attention while i was in school.  i have been offered so much help.  i dont bring any work home. i am well aware  that i have to work my mind like  i  am working on my body , i just realized that while i am doing my school work i cant take my mind somewhere else. like every obsticle  i will get it done just venting and complaining

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


well i lost track of the weeks however i have not lost track of my journey. i lost 2 more lbs for a total of 83 lbs and now i am @ 193! i never would have guessed. seems that bit by bit pieces of MY life are coming togeather. i have a great job a great roomate/mentor, and i am going to school. just waiting for that relationship which will come in Gods, time. I would like to say i am finding my rythem on living on my own i also would like to say my parents are taking it very well. Zac/Fawn  i love you guys and will not waste your time /investment keep on keeping on!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


I learend today that i am a Investment and the payout is Gods glory. Today fawn trained me and bernie, it was tough. i have moved out building my own foundation i will be honest i am sad, on the other hand just like the weight lost i had to take action which i did on my personal life set my boundries. As an person being invested in and being held accountable for everything i do loosing is NOT an option. i believe that GOD, is putting me on the right pat. i am scared however very determined with his will andgive him all my problems and he willguide me thur.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


hello everyone,  first i would like to say thank you for your support and for your encouragement.  well as the title says its offical i will be going to school! i will start on friday. i remeber talk n talking about going back, as you know ACTIONS are louder then words. i  have stopped complainng about how bad i think  i may have have  when in reality i will embrace it and enjoy what GOD, provivded for me. i dont have a perfect life but i am  defantly enjoying it. good or bad