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Monday, October 10, 2011

10-10-11

i have so much to say and feelings but it so much i dont know where to begin. i am still have fear and at the moment i dont know how to react i have some what an F it attiude i feel like i am emotionaly out of control.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

8-3-11

well here i am>Iam here being Candelario Garcia  I am exre,mly blessed i cant complain even though i do i should be greatful Cause i haveWhat i need not What i want.I know what i want i want to Follow God !and and there is no Fear with him cause he is the One and only person i need to Please and put him and others before myself

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

7-5-11

hello, i just want to get some stuff off my mind. i dont know what holds me back i am sick n tired of beng Shy and people constinaly asking me 'whats wrong' just because my facail expression is not to there liking or just cause i am not smiling doesnt mean anything is wrong. i work 8-12 or mre hours in a day! anyway just wanted to say thatmore to come

Monday, June 20, 2011

6-20-11

where to start?  its been a while since i blogged. as usual i havw my ups and downs.i am moving forward i finished life n christ and i will be part of volunteer staff @ my church. i am excited and scared at hte same time.  i have maintained my weight and  countinue to focus on my self. i cant wait tosee whqat elsei cando !!!!

Monday, May 23, 2011

5-23-11

I was going trough the picture that were taken through out this journy and i cam a long way. i am learning  alot about life work school  all these thing and its a liltte overwelming, I sometimes have so much to do i don't know where to begin! then i get fraustrated shortly i get pissed off and  finally i get really pissed off! like dont even talk to me pissed off!, my family knows what i am talking about. Any way all i can do is take on 1 task at a time, andremeber that there is a solution for everything. I need to trust in God,  he will strenght me and uphold me  with his rightious hand(s).  everytime i remeber that i nolonger worry about the problem at hand.  the reason for that is  because God, already knows the out come of everything and never will put me in a situation i couldnot handel, there is a quote from MLK JR, goes like this "The ultimate measure of a person is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convienance,but where (one ) stands at times of challenge and contriversy" this quote i feel speakes to mebecause i find that my confirt zone  i feel like i am on auto pilit, and when i am in going toface a chanlleng i find that i shut down and run away from it (meantaly do npot want todeal with the issue) when in reality i should run right into it a tackel head on for twomajor reasons 1 God has my back and 2 so does my freinds and family, So i will keepon keeping on Get er done ;)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

5-21-11

being an adult is tought my hat goes off to all the parents cause i now see why your strict lol. i have nothing new to repot just trying to get through this roller coster called life! work wqill be work i am luck to have a JOB(career) i am happy cause i got to see a freind even if it was for a few mins. i learen that everyone is a leader even if you leading your self. that got me thinking which in turn gave me a head ach i perfer top be on auto piolit @ times. overall i have choices and if i make one  i have to live with it and all is good have a good nite

Sunday, May 8, 2011

5-8-11

well happy MOTHERS day to ALL the MOMS that read my blog. i really think we shouldnt deadicate only 1 day to Mothers, but all 365 days of the year. I would like  to deadicate this blog to my Mother, not just because it's her day but because her love is unconditional, she is caring and encouraging. One of her biggest sacarfice she gave me was giving birth to me, and there is nothin in this MATEREALISTIC world that could or would ever amount to her. From the beging of this journey she has been ther for me making my lunches and making sure i stayed on track. MOM i love you! no words can measure tha but ,y actions will

Saturday, May 7, 2011

5-7-11

Wow, it great to know that we ae human(s) to get to learn and grow. i learened something new the other day, and that was as an individule i have seasons: time frames whatever you want to call i am great ful for everythinfg and everyone in my life,  for the good and the bad  it measures your character, integerity, Faith,. that the beauty of humanity we countinue to learn some of us learn quicker the others  and others choose not to learn. all i know is that i will countiue to surrende to God.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

4-21-11

as you can see i am blogging alot more! i have an update on the surender of Cande! 2 days back to back i have spoken wih firmness and honesty with GOD, on  my surrend to him,  especaily 2 areas of my life. One of those areas is my career, the other is relationships, i have left them in GODs, hands. its up to him what he will do with them All i i know is i will put in 100% in these areas.  it is a great feeling! to have qand in just those 2 days people have noticed, go figure. i also learend "QUICK SLOW SLOW" Quick to listen, Slow to speak,Slow to get angry, (thanks Gabe)i heard this and i loved it. the reason is  because i do the complete oppiste quick to get angry Quick to speak, Slow to listen. Any its been a great week a great night and Thats my update for as fawn would say Y'ALL lol.

Monday, April 18, 2011

4-18-11

i dont know what to say! i feel very repatative. it has been 9 months and i lost 87 or 88 lbs, as always its not the # but the journey!  it ALL has become 2nd nature to me the eatting the excersice etc....  ALL i know is that now its not about the weight its about the emotional side of it now the confidence the selfestem,  because whats my excuse now? i am not FAT(over weight), and this is something i need to deal with  as menioned before i feel like i am going down the same path and i refuse to do so. So my question now is how to gain that confidance? How to stop caring of what people think? i think is by spending time with Candelario, what am i about? to stop putting on mask  for other people to feel comfterable but to make candelario,
comfterable first so other people, around me can be to. I say that  because i am tired of being afraid, if i cant be comfterable with me, how can i be with others?  The answer is with GODs, guidance and grace because  not matter what he loves me, and wants the bes tfor me and ALL of us. In thebeginig  i say 9 months have gone by and thats how long it takes before a child is born. Connecting the dots i feel like i have been born again, With that said I want  surrender myself to GOD, and nothing/no one else if he wants me to have a relationship he will give 1 to me, if wants me to have a family he will give me 1.. What will i do for him?  serve and love those around me get out of my comfert Zone. Do what Zac and Fawn did for me, invest in others. Because its not about me, its about us.in the process i will get to know Candelario Garcia.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

4-16-11

what is the deal! Why do countinuedown the same path if i knowit leads to no where. i am @ work and i am thinking of Personal lifre, i am hanging out  and i cant stop thinking of work! it is fraustrating. i am scared of it ALL i dont know what else to say except for  i want off this path and be happy. i am tired of being angry scared fearful i feel something missing and i cant find it will i ever?

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

4-4-11

hello everyone. as you know i am on a long journey! and trust me when i say its an emotional rollercoster. the reason i,say tha is because its still difficult for me to accept compliments and i still put myself down before anyone else can so i beat them to the punch. and the people i am talking to are etreamly caring loving and non judgemental but 20 years of being put down and picked on for being OVERWEIGHT or for having glasses and not being able to have the fancy cloths that everyone had/hasas a kid it was very for being dark sikined  ALL the BS that come with being diffrent. Why am i repeating or say the same stuff over n over is because i am in a healing procees its very difficult for me to see or run across someone from my past and act like everything is or was ok when i was marked by the words. there are days just certain events from my past come across and i just want to cry. once again i moved out and ifeelalone even thoug i am not i not looking for pitty just trying to build my relations ships freindship fellowships  and it difficult for me  because i do it on a daily basis and that is communicate i cant even do that and sounds easy right. Wrong and the reason is because i still care what people think of me,and i should nt be like that because i know GODloves me and accepts me for who I AM,  he gave his only son for our sins and here  i am feeling selfish by being scareed of talking. All i know is am scared just like when i started this journey and i will overcome this and more  just like i did by lossing the weight and its not just about that but growing as a person a young man into a man the man god wants me to be. KEEP ON KEEPING ON !!!  Fawn/Zac i miss you guys and i will not let you guys down and especailly Myself or God with out you him and my family i would never have mad it this far i love you guys

Saturday, April 2, 2011

4-2-11

well its been a month that i have been out on my own and surprisingly i have not starved to death lol. its dificult scary. As you can see reality hit me! i was overwelmed scared. with my family and friends support i will get thur this Also with Gods, help.to =)

Sunday, March 27, 2011

3/27/11

i have so much on my mind i dont know where to start. i guees i can start with the fact that i am only 27 and i have found that i am a work a holic, and that is were i i am alot more comfterable. i say this because i was hanging out with my freinds and sometimes i feelgood and lat night i felt like as if was the first time i hung out with them, like i had no control. so i camehome and did some work for about an hour or 2 after that i felt better and i dont know why? another one of my many issues is that i moved out on my own. it was choice to grow up i will be honest i at times i do feel lonley even tho i know i am not. i love and just miss my family. there is still other things i want to write on how ever i am short on time. life is to short letsenjoy everydayto the fullest

Sunday, March 20, 2011

3-20-11 actions speak louder then words

Actions have gotten me to where i am @  today. i had a discuction with some freinds, and as usual the bring things into the light. i have lost 80 plus lbs. moved out of my house.going back to school. all in that order i now want to be in a relationship and the only way that is goingto happen is if I TAKE ACTION. nothing  that is listed above happened on its own. So i look forward to this challenge and i will succeed

Thursday, March 17, 2011

3-17-11 First day of school

today was my first day of school and i have a major head ache i felt and feel really DUMB! couldnt subtract add mutiply or divide. i honestly am thinking what did i get myself into? i am  just pissed off at my self should have paid more attention while i was in school.  i have been offered so much help.  i dont bring any work home. i am well aware  that i have to work my mind like  i  am working on my body , i just realized that while i am doing my school work i cant take my mind somewhere else. like every obsticle  i will get it done just venting and complaining

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

3-15-11

well i lost track of the weeks however i have not lost track of my journey. i lost 2 more lbs for a total of 83 lbs and now i am @ 193! i never would have guessed. seems that bit by bit pieces of MY life are coming togeather. i have a great job a great roomate/mentor, and i am going to school. just waiting for that relationship which will come in Gods, time. I would like to say i am finding my rythem on living on my own i also would like to say my parents are taking it very well. Zac/Fawn  i love you guys and will not waste your time /investment keep on keeping on!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

3/8/11

I learend today that i am a Investment and the payout is Gods glory. Today fawn trained me and bernie, it was tough. i have moved out building my own foundation i will be honest i am sad, on the other hand just like the weight lost i had to take action which i did on my personal life set my boundries. As an person being invested in and being held accountable for everything i do loosing is NOT an option. i believe that GOD, is putting me on the right pat. i am scared however very determined with his will andgive him all my problems and he willguide me thur.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

3-2-11 IT'S OFFICAL

hello everyone,  first i would like to say thank you for your support and for your encouragement.  well as the title says its offical i will be going to school! i will start on friday. i remeber talk n talking about going back, as you know ACTIONS are louder then words. i  have stopped complainng about how bad i think  i may have have  when in reality i will embrace it and enjoy what GOD, provivded for me. i dont have a perfect life but i am  defantly enjoying it. good or bad

Thursday, February 24, 2011

2-24-11

this week  hasbeen pretty good.  i have recieved  alot of good news. a couple of days ago i had to ride along with my boss, and he changed the radio station to  107.9 i believe it was a chritian station, as i am drving and hearing the sermanm i  feel this warm sensation in my heart. i didnt know what it was but felt pretty good! i feel alot more confident, but itrs not about me its about GOD directing me as i countinue his path. i will get what i need  i feel so blessed, it's overwelming in a good way!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

2-20-11 Z is in WISCONSON

well as alot of you know zac was hired in greenbay! which is AWSOME! I am a little sad but its not about me  i am proud to say  Zac Woodfin and Fawn woodfin are my freinds. they liturally save my life. Moving forward i  look forward to what God has in sotre for us! he take and gives when he sees fit  and i will follow.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

2-13-11

i just got back from a Great weekend! i went snowboarding it was fun! until i feell multiple times lol like in life i feel down and got back up. this was my 3 rd time @ high elevation the first 2 time i got altittude sickness and did not make on the slopes. this time as mentioned early it was great wentr up there and enjoyed what god made. its a work out ansd look forward to doing it again next year.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

2-10-11

Growth is a pain full procees. i thought having all the confidence and being sure of myself  things would get easy, boy was i wrong! people will push that limit with you. i have been told certain people perfered me to be overweight i hear  cerain  people talk  i dont hear or feel that they are real. they say what i  want to hear and all i hear is bullshit! i appologize for the profanity  i feel a litle  frustrated! dont get me wrong i love my new life style however its challenging at times

Thursday, February 3, 2011

2-3-11

YESTERDAY I ALMOST LET A SMALL ISSUE GET TO ME BUT IT DIDNT BECAUSE I AM READING! WHICH IS SHOCKING BECAUSE I AM NOT MUCH OF A READER LOL. THE BOOK IS CALLED MAKE TODAY COUNT. I AM NOT EVEN THROUGH THE FIRST CHAPTERAND ITS A GREAT BOOK. THER WAS A QOUTE IN IT I REALLY LIKE"THINGS TURN OUT BEST FOR PEOPLEWHO MAKE THE BEST OF THE WAY THINGS TURNED OUT" IN MY OPINION THAT IS TRUE. I HAVE NOTICED THAT IT TAKES ALOT OF ENERGY TO BE PISSED OFF OR ANGRY. ITS NOT A GOOD THING. SO THE SMALL ISSUE THAT ALMOST MESSED UP MY EVENING DIDNT BECAUSE I REMEBERED WHAT I WAS READING IN THE BOOK, SO THAT INSUGNIFICANT PROBLEM WAS NOT A PROBLEM JUST A MINOR BUMP IN MY DAY. I LEARENED ATTUIDE PLAYS A BIG ROLE ON HOW OUR DAY GOES, SO IF WE HAVE A GOOD/GREAT ATTIUDE WE WILL HAVE A GOOD/GREAT DAY!

Monday, January 31, 2011

1-31-11

i had 2 good days off did alot both days was up before the sun and home when the sun went down =). a while ago i texted grace my sister, i was a little upset because i know bi want to go back to school just unable to find 1 that suits my schedule. i will countinue to look @ other options and hope it works out. i had a great talk with a friend on sunday night that also put thing in prospective. i will take his suggestion and just leave my problems in GODS, hands allneed to do is focus on my part of the problem. i cant wait to overcome this

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

1-26-11

What a great day! Nothing can stop me causer honestly i dont care what other people think> i am turning into the Man GOD, wants to be. i dont know what else to say! i love life my Family and GOD.

Monday, January 24, 2011

1-24-11

well i just got back from working out with fawn, and all i can say is wow! she countiue to push us. Fawn/Zac, are directing me in the right direction. Cause tonight i weighed in and i lost 6 more LBS for a total of 71lbs in 22 weeks. i was shocked! People ask what i do and i explain i am doing a life change, they answer oh so your on a diet! i answer no its a life change. Any way i am living and loving life no mater what it throws my way with GODs, help i will get tur it !Keep on keeping on =)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

1-16-11

What a great day! i love my life good/bad that comes with it. Choices we all have them,no mater which one we pick we must be pre pared for the outcome. Good or bad we must learn from them and move forward! i have learned from zac/fawn alot! that is a choice i have made and the out is well worth the traing they havwe me do. the pain of 1 hour work is nothing compared to the pain of selpitty or lack of self esteam. they taught me that i should love and take care of my self, also that i was made i GODs image and he will LOVE me no mater what i look like or what i do ultamitly its my choice and thisa is my year! I am Candelario Garcia and i matter. for every 1 person that may hate me, theres 10 people that love and care for me

Cande's New Pics!!!! Look how Far he has come!

Cande's changing from the inside out! Check out his progress!!! from 276 pounds to 211! But most importantly, Cande is becoming a different person! He is going back to school, gaining self confidence and now knows what it looks like to truly live a healthy lifestyle! Way to go Cande!!!





















Thursday, January 13, 2011

1-13-11

I am very excited. i will be going back to school to get my GED/HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA. i will have a game plan by next week! i am still in shock. first i am loosing weigh now i will be going to school =))> this goes to show how positive peopl and GOD, can do. this is the first time i an really say is I love my life translation i love GOD because we are all made in his image

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

1-12-11

nothing is free in life accept the Grace, of GOD. i heard this in a movie an i liked it. it has the advantage of being true! i really dont know what eles i need to say. i have my health a job and my family. i guess i just need to learn howc to ap[precaite all of that and stop complaining. i just want to be happy!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

1-8-11

what can i say i have God, in my life! as well as my family and friends. i realized that i have to appreciate what i have and come not what i dont have. all i know is i am able to come to terms with myself. instead of complaing make it work. cause @ the end of the day its just me Candelario garcia and i am who iam and keep on keeping on =)

Monday, January 3, 2011

1-3-11

Well here we are the 3rd day of the new year! i am confused and feel lost. this is cause by a controllable situation, which for some reason i can not get a hold of. i am not going to let this consume me but i will gain wisdom and strength. this will be a great year, only time will tell. GOD, will give me what i need and when i need it. its not a lost cause not yet any way